Sara Groves wrote a song on her latest CD about "the long defeat".
She takes the concept from CS Lewis, the idea that we fight our way through the battles that God leads us to, & in many of them we will not see victory. Sara's music &
thought-provoking words have been a place of conviction for Dave & I over the past few years. This song verbalizes some complicated, confused thoughts I have had in my mind regarding poverty, the fatherless & the hungry.
I have joined the long defeat
that falling set in motion
all my strength and energy
are raindrops in the ocean
so conditioned for the win
to share in victor's stories
but in the place of ambition's din
I've heard of other glories
I pray for an idea
and a way I cannot see
It's too heavy to carry
and impossible to leave
The song goes on, but I think that much reveals what I'm trying to convey. There are some really big problems in the world. Problems that, frankly, my nickels & dimes, my love & prayers, my letters or hope or gifts, just cannot touch. Even adoption cannot solve all the trials the orphans of the world face.
But I say this not to discourage you. Or myself.
I discuss this idea because as we enter this season of bounty & celebration & excess, I want to purposely choose to see myself & my family as warriors in a battle that we may not win, but will purpose to fight.
We take the ones the Lord loves, the ones the world overlooks & we choose to look, to help, to give. We get overwhelmed, we feel weary from the weight, but we know we serve the God who sees. The God who knows & understands & loves all with an even weightier love.
One more stanza from the song....
We walk a while we sit and rest
we lay it on the altar
I won't pretend to know what's next
but what I have I've offered
And yes.
What we have we will continue to offer.